Last Friday night I was woken by Harry screaming, I ran in and picked him up and he was so hot, I have never known his temperature ever be that high, or any of the others for that matter! I gave him paracetamol and in my bed with just his blanket, I didn’t have the thermometer, I have no idea where it has gone in the move. Saturday I went and bought a new one and checked his temperature straight away and it was 38.5!! So since Saturday he has been having ibuprofen and paracetamol alternated every 2 hours but I couldn’t get his temperature below 38. I knew he was ok and the fever was fighting any infection he may have but Tuesday his temp rose to 39.5 and he wasn’t due any medicine for another hour. Doctors appoinment made and turns out he has an ear infection poor little man. Tuesday adgternoon Declan was also sent home ill from school after being sick in the reception, and Wednesday I was due back in work, I know I only work three half days a week, but when one of my children is ill at home there is nothing I want to do more than to stay home and cuddling them all day and to have to leave them both yesterday (although Declan was perfectly fine) was horrible.
This is the transformation that I have had to take in less than a month! On 24th July I was in a loving relationship with the man of my dreams who I love dearly and was so happy with it was unbelievable. We had three beautiful children together and a whole adult life of memories together.
I was a stay at home mum who was heavily involved in school life and everything about it, I was studying to become a teacher once all the children were in full time school, I was able to help out all of the mums and pick up their children from school if they were running late, I was involved in every aspect of my children’s life as my job as a stay at home mum.
Unfortunately on the 25th July I became a single stay at home mum with no income and no means of living comfortably unless I got a job. This involved loosing out on my whole summer holidays of fun with the kids as I couldn’t afford the days out.
I was a complete mess, for 2 days I refused to see anyone at all, no one was allowed into my house, and even on the 3rd 4th days I wasn’t ready to see people but it got to the point where I didn’t have a choice. But on the 28th it was as if a switch had clicked and I decided I could either mope about and feel sorry for myself or I could stand up and get on with it. So I got a job, working 3 afternoons a week, it does mean I won’t be able to take Harry to school 3 days a week and I won’t be able to pick my kids up for those days either but I will be able to treat them to days out and give them a roof over their heads and food in their belly’s and it will be because of everything that I have done and what I have worked hard for.
I have been a working mum now for 2 weeks and its not all bad, it is hard and I hate the loneliness that I feel every single night but I am grateful for the interaction I get when I am working, if I wasn’t working I would be lonely 24/7 and that would be harder!
So in just 1 day my whole life turned upside down and I have a long way to go but I have already come so far!