There are a lot of new things that are happening in 2016 for me and my amazing children. We are now over 3 weeks into the new year and although we have had a few hiccups along the way we are slowly getting there.
There is no denying the past 7 months have been the worst of my life, I am absolutely torn between the person I was, the person I am being and the person I want to be. Knowing that the people who you thought would be there for you aren’t and no matter how much you try it hurts! There is nothing worse than seeing the man that you once loved appear in front of you as a complete stranger. It is a horrible feeling to go through knowing that the man I loved no longer exists, and therefore the woman he loved no longer exists either – and I was just started to like her and feel comfortable.
I am not the most confident of people, I may act like I am but I am not and I can honestly say I was starting to feel happy, I had gained so many skills and started so many different career paths that I thought I was well on the way to being the best person I could be and it all comes crashing back down to earth. I can feel myself changing daily! I can feel a new start coming and I am trying to embrace it in the best possible way I can!
New Year started well, New house came very shortly afterwards, followed by a new career – CHILDMINDING!! I finally managed to get all the work completed so just the application form to fill in now – which isn’t going to be easy! New blog – which I really want to keep on top of so if anyone has got any tips please let me know!!
So there are lots of things looking forward, which is where I need to be looking. I need to stop looking back at the person I was as I will never get to be her again, now I have to be the independent, reliable and strong person who is there for my children 24 hours a day 7 days a week for the rest of their lives. They are the best most important thing that has ever happened to me and I am so grateful for the opportunity that I was given to become their Mum, they are shaping me to being the best version of me I can be!
And on that note I will leave you with some little snaps of them 🙂
So here we go, new fresh looking blog (still tweaking) and a few ideas of posts to write over the next few weeks and see how we get on 🙂