This is the transformation that I have had to take in less than a month! On 24th July I was in a loving relationship with the man of my dreams who I love dearly and was so happy with it was unbelievable. We had three beautiful children together and a whole adult life of memories together.
I was a stay at home mum who was heavily involved in school life and everything about it, I was studying to become a teacher once all the children were in full time school, I was able to help out all of the mums and pick up their children from school if they were running late, I was involved in every aspect of my children’s life as my job as a stay at home mum.
Unfortunately on the 25th July I became a single stay at home mum with no income and no means of living comfortably unless I got a job. This involved loosing out on my whole summer holidays of fun with the kids as I couldn’t afford the days out.
I was a complete mess, for 2 days I refused to see anyone at all, no one was allowed into my house, and even on the 3rd 4th days I wasn’t ready to see people but it got to the point where I didn’t have a choice. But on the 28th it was as if a switch had clicked and I decided I could either mope about and feel sorry for myself or I could stand up and get on with it. So I got a job, working 3 afternoons a week, it does mean I won’t be able to take Harry to school 3 days a week and I won’t be able to pick my kids up for those days either but I will be able to treat them to days out and give them a roof over their heads and food in their belly’s and it will be because of everything that I have done and what I have worked hard for.
I have been a working mum now for 2 weeks and its not all bad, it is hard and I hate the loneliness that I feel every single night but I am grateful for the interaction I get when I am working, if I wasn’t working I would be lonely 24/7 and that would be harder!
So in just 1 day my whole life turned upside down and I have a long way to go but I have already come so far!
With the big kiddies off camping I decided to take Harry and my nephew to Gullivers World. I took the big two last year and they absolutely loved it but Harry was a little too small then to go, so I thought this would be the perfect opportunity.
As the kids were smaller than 90cm we didn’t have to pay for them and I ordered my tickets online and I paid £26 for an all inclusive ticket and for that we got the entrance fee, a meal, a drink and an ice cream. When we got there we paid for the children to become all inclusive too which was £9 and they also received a £1 voucher off any purchase in the shop.
So once we had paid the extra and headed in we went straight to the rides! The first few were the cups, an aeroplane ride, a train ride and a barrel ride.
The Summer Holidays aren’t what I expected them to be! I had so many plans for this year and so many things I wanted to do but unfortunately things don’t work out how we wanted them too!
Week 1 – 18th JUL – 24th JUL
Sat, Sun, Mon and Tuesday were all pretty quiet, we were packing and getting ready for going away for our first anniversary! My cousins had the children and they went to Drayton Manor and Cadbury World whilst we went out for a lovely all you can eat chinese and to The Glee Club afterwards to watch the comedy carousel and it was such an amazing night! Friday we went to the cinema to watch Inside Out.
Week 2 – 25th JUL – 31st JUL
Saturday on the way home we went to the Ice Cream Farm in Cheshire which was a lovely and then on the way home my whole world was turned upside down, Dan decided that he no longer wanted to be with me that he was no longer happy with me, the next two days were a total blur and I did nothing but cry, then Monday night it was as if a light switched on and I realised I had two choices, I could sit at home and mope about – which believe me I could quite easily have done – or I could get off my backside and make something of myself. I had to step up for me and for my three amazing kids and I needed to show them that I was ok! I didn’t want them to dislike their dad in the slightest and I knew that moping about and them seeing that would paint him in a bad light, so I stepped up and sorted myself out. We watched movies, and enjoyed time together!!
Well busy is one word to describe it! The rest of June and beginning of July was spent helping out at the school, starting a little business from home selling Usborne Books and planning the summer holidays 🙂
July 23rd brought our 1st wedding anniversary and we went out for a lovely meal and The Glee Club in Birmingham which was amazing, but unfortunately on the way home from our time away my husband decided that he wasn’t happy anymore and decided to leave me. The rest of July was a bit of a blur and to be honest I thought so much about deleting my blog and not doing it anymore, but nearly 4 weeks down the line and I am lonely, and I think I need the blog now more than ever!
August brought the death of Dan’s grandad which was a horrible experience to have to go through, his family are being amazing but I felt this enormous pang of grief and in my head I am thinking I am not part of the family anymore why should I feel this grief! My whole adult life I have been with him and his family as my family all live West Midlands way and I moved to Wales to be with him, so they are my support network as such and now I am sat here lonely and bored so I have decided that I will keep the blog going and get back on track with it to keep me from going insane at night time!!
So the holidays have been completely thrown around and to add wood to the fire Harry got a chest infection and ended up in hospital on oxygen for three nights!